Tension. Seriously.

I can't take it anymore. I am not happy these few days, like something triggered it. I think I lost the peace and happiness from my God. And it's so hard when it's gone. I feel so empty and get angry at my family.

The only thing that actually pleases me, are the earthly things.

Yes, earthly things.

I think I have actually fallen into the worldly ideas.

I think I have lost what I used to have, that is the inner peace from God. Where has it all gone too?

Today, I picked up the bass. I enjoyed playing it with the band. That calm me down, as I entered into the other world, as my fingers run along the bass. As I enjoy the music and the smooth sound of the low bass.

Help me God, I have lost it. I have lost this, I have lost myself.

Who am I and where I am? I am scared.